Mario

I think this guy is simply amazing. Stuff like this (from ebaums, r-click save as) is simply (awe) inspiring...

But damnit if the performers themselves can't even switch off their handphones (4.55), how do they expect their audiences to behave?

things that go bump inside

I'm scared.

After a semester of solitude and minding-my-own-business living, I've suddenly grown accustomed and rather fond of this semblence of a hermit's life. No silly engagements, tedious social rituals. Just the bare minimum of hi-byes and simple social rules to follow, like smiling warmly to a stranger that you know you could should have gotten to know better but reduced to just another familiar face.

Which shouldn't really be a problem if i'm a REAL hermit.

I'm fortunate to have friends that used to care, loved ones that care, friends that would potentially still care should the need arise. But I find that I don't really care about anybody else anymore. Well I DO know when to show the right emotions and actions, but they're all more like standard tried and tested protocols. Stimulus-response system. It's almost like an uncle gives you sweet and you know instinctively to say 'thank you'. But would you necessarily be REALLY thankful for that reward? Well I mean quiz the kiddo and he'd prolly tell you yeah, but then again isn't that another conditioned 'right' answer?

The 'right' answer can translate to a 'right' thought too. EVERYBODY loves to think themselves as MR Nice. If you ever asked yourself about anything that you're unsure of about yourself, chances are that would be resolved as something positive. Unless you decide that you're 'depressed'. Or maybe some preceeding factors that lead you to think that way. Bottom line is, it's bad to feel bad - towards others and yourself, and of course good to feel good.

So I guess my point here is that I don't trust myself at all. Not one bit. The weakest (and also strongest) defense I've got is that I care enough to know that I should care more. Knowing that it's not enough - and here's the catch - and by doing more doesn't really make it sufficient either. Because it can all just be a ploy to make myself feel better.

Then I tell myself. Ah fuck it. As long as the people around who deserves to be happy are happy. But then I'm NOT HAPPY. Because I'm a moralistic fuck who have qualms about lying. And I also happen to be a condescending asshole who condemns dumbfucks that respond because it is politically correct.

And that's why i never cross the 1 year barrier. Maybe my cognitive function for love is temporarily (or permanently) damaged. Not that I can't express it. Nor do I not feel it. I just don't love back. I feel like a robot. Responding in a manner closest to one that would ellict the strongest positive response from the other party. The robot doesn't necessary have to believe in himself to carry out those functions.

Maybe i need a religion. Or at least pretend that God would solve all my problems (shaddup and stop using passe anti-atheistic arguments to justify your own claims. How many times must i tell you there's NO way religious thinking can triumph over agnostic thought, so fuck off). Maybe i'd be better off if i just learn to love myself alone. And what better way to do that than to have all the time in the world to myself, with myself, by myself.

Degrees of Separation

01. 23/04/2005 23:11:59 tagore "the furthest distance in the world" (Yahoo)
02. 23/04/2005 09:46:00 eng wah suntec showtimes (Google)
03. 22/04/2005 09:41:23 friendster ying yi c*ij (Google)
04. 22/04/2005 04:29:31 eng wah suntec (Google)
05. 21/04/2005 18:59:17 Define Marketting Intelligence (Google)
06. 21/04/2005 17:32:06 pronounciation of facade (Google)
07. 21/04/2005 14:57:12 bonny hicks (Google)
08. 21/04/2005 13:56:45 "jin chi" + "lyrics" + "chinese" (Google)
09. 21/04/2005 13:06:00 f***a.t***g n*s (Google)
10. 21/04/2005 07:39:19 "t***g k*-y*n" (Google)
11. 21/04/2005 07:11:00 Tagore The Furthest Distance in the World (Google)
12. 20/04/2005 19:34:18 she pictured herself how this same little sister of hers would in the aftertime be herself a grown woman and how she would keep through all her riper years the simple and loving heart of her childhood (Google)
13. 20/04/2005 17:24:46 grandmama,s f**k (Yahoo)
14. 20/04/2005 10:37:23 She pictured to herself how this same little sister of hers would, in the aftertime, be herself a grown woman; and how she would keep, through all her riper years, the simple and loving heart of her childhood. (Google)
15. 20/04/2005 02:37:09 xanga julie ly (AOL)
16. 19/04/2005 10:10:49 Ashley Pool V*y**rs (Yahoo)
17. 19/04/2005 04:13:32 4turing (Google)
18. 19/04/2005 04:01:24 tagore, poem, The furthest distance in the world (Yahoo)
19. 18/04/2005 21:39:37 +faked+o****m+when harry met sally+clip (Yahoo)
20. 18/04/2005 18:29:01 f**k in geylang (Yahoo)

Funny how innocuous things add up. The above lists the most recent dubious searches on various engines that somehow misled people into giving me more hits. I mean I can understand where some of them are coming from, given my non-taboo with profanities, but some of them are really weird. Like WTF is ying yi??! Just because I dated someone there doesn't mean I'd like know the whole damn school!

Extending the list to include the 'top 25 keywords' searched is even more absurd. i'd get things like:

guantanamela lyrics (Yahoo) - well ok, i THINK i did write something similar
increase in price of cinema tickets (Yahoo) - yup been there
lightning conductor above hdb flats (Yahoo) - ?!?!?!
picture of s**g*p**e c*ij girl touching another girl's ass (Google) - sicko
r*****s girls school p**n video (AltaVista) - this is not kazaa!!
sex stories of mother fucking son (Yahoo) - sicko
Shaw Organisation (Yahoo) - boycott cos they'll charge u more for movies
arts club nus blog (Yahoo) - and this isn't even in the 1st 10 pages! (i checked)
Asperger's Syndrome (Yahoo) - book about the curious incident of the dead dog
short stories written by Goh Sin Tub (Yahoo) - i had one of his story
Cathay organization 1st April 2003 (Yahoo) - support them, but wat happened in 03?

Goes to show how many loser sick ass there are out there in the world. The asterisks are self imposed, so as not to generate more misdirected hits to the site. I mean it's no crime looking for pron (go do a search, very soon it wouldn't even be considered a typo), but at least be smart about it! So now we know. Local horny dudes love pinafores. I'm sure if i type keywords like 'st nicks', 'crescent', 'scgs', 'girls girls and more girls!', i'm sure there'd be more to come. Let me just reemphasize. There is NO PRON IN HERE. Well, or at least the documentary don't count.

Oh, and for the record, it's 'pronUnciation', not 'pronOUnciation'. Yes, you pronounce something, but that's not how you spell it. 'Fa-' as in 'FUr' - without the 'r', '-cade' as in 'SUnday' - without the 'nday' + 'ard' as in 'retard without the 're' and the 'r'. Facade. Not Fa-ka-dey.

I dream of Jupiter

On the night of 22nd when everyone else was busy preparing for their exams, I was out gazing at the sky.

Out close to the nearly complete moon shone a speck so bright, incandescent amidst the illuminosity of the godsend satellite.

Nobody knew what it is. If fact, none if few bothered.

And so I asked,
"Hey, can you help me go look at the moon?"

But nobody really knew, until this came up (which is suspiciously to the layout of this other site)

Jupiter is 0 degrees 6 minutes north of the Moon. Occulation of Jupiter by the Moon.
So how close is that? The way I saw it that night, if the moon's the size of your thumb, the width of your finger placed next to it would have totally obscured its view.

And that was a welcoming break to the senseless hours hitting the books.

Mental Note

Seems like most of the good things free in life starts with 'O'.

Presenting,
OpenOffice - where you won't EVER need to purchase a single MS Office again! Whatever happened to the good old wordperfect system anyway?

Opera - Who cares about the other bird or fox when this one is more compact, and loads pages faster?

Who says porn isn't educational?

6-parter documentary from your favourite cable movie channel. I doubt that they're EVER gonna show this on channel 60 here though!
Is it just me or do some of them actually sound 'different'?

Part 1 - Perky and Punctual
Part 2 - Women on Top
Part 3 - 'Same Sex' Sex
Part 4 - The Business of Kink
Part 5 - Love and/or Sex
Part 6 - Questions Anyone?

Got the link sometime ago but never really finished watching all six parts.. A bit dated though, but i'm sure 9 out 10 of you losers out there never knew this exist or have ever seen it.

3 years and still counting

ORD loh! Sure, it's nothing now that the kids nowadays get to do 2 instead of the 6 months more, but it sure feels like yesterday. And I'm not even making a conscious effort to remember. It just happens. I guess trauma does impact one in a certain way, but it sure didn't feel all that traumatic back then. I think my NS was a breeze, kinda. No doubt it sucked my youth away, but hey, I'm still young rite? :P Or at least as young as I'd like to be. Or maybe it's just the Alan Tam syndrome. Not even there yet buy feeling 25, and staying there from then onwards.

No Stopping In The Yellow Box

Decisions are made in a matter of split seconds. The years and months spent so called 'thinking about it' or 'deciding' are just shunning away from the obvious. And that's why i was so damn dead sure that I wanna do honours the moment i came in, and why i've 'suddenly' decided not to do it too.

Primarily, i wanted to do it just so that i could be empirically proven to be 'smart'. No doubt intelligence is so much more, but in the shallow world of science, the only form of recognition is evidence. I know there's lots of stupid (in all senses) people out there in the world, and this is just a simple straightforward way of separating myself from them.

Then there's the thought of learning more, broadening horizon for the sake of knowledge, yada yada, but 3 years of experience in aNUS is enough to let you know that, you don't learn SHIT here (the grammatic incorrectness just shows to prove the point). C'mon, I should just stop kidding myself, did i REALLY think that I'd be learning anything here? 2 other local universities are now opening up their humanities or social sciences courses, and only NOW is my institude panicking. Each sem, more and more lecturers are leaving for greener pastures. If the school don't even take care of their staff, should I be optimistic about them taking good care of me? I see myself struggling without much knowledge acquiring.

1 year of opportunity cost. Would I be better off studying elsewhere? I should think so. But then again, would be better off not studying? Maybe not. So I guess until i find my better grassland to chew on, I guess you'd still see me around next year.

Exciting Upcoming Events!

Tue: 1 20% Assignment due
Wed: 2 50% test
Thu: 1 50% test
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Sun: National Basketball League Division 1 Finals!
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Thu: 1 60% totally-stumped-dunno-wtf-i'm-doin assignment due.
Sat: 1st EXAM!!
Fri: Last EXAM!!

Somebody tell me how to get my (hons) at the rate that i'm going.

My Nine Dollars and Fifty Cents Worth

First, no EPL on free to air TV. Then, no NATIONAL online newspaper archive. Now, $9.50 per movie ticket.I sure do hope this is some mis-timed April Fools. Is there NO STOPPING or controlling the media? Yes, yes, I know we had it good. People pay tons to go see it on the big screen in HK, UK, yada yada. So poor 'ol hapless consumer's gotta 'help' alleviate rising utility costs because old long time suffering conglomerate can't sustain a little 5% increment in taxes and what nots?

So you increase popcorn prices. Tier seat pricings. Screen less if you have to (To have like the WHOLE damn island playing 'Hitch' at all 22 cinemas at roughly the same time, and once every half hour just doesn't make sense) The point is, there's EASILY other alternatives to cover costs. Unless part of the aim is to milk the funds out of the movie goers.

And who are these so called 'consumers' anyway? Check your fucking demographs, CFEA. Schoolkids don't even fall under the catergory of the unemployed cos they're still PAYING to go to school. And you want the bulk of them to bear the brunt of your corporate greed?

I say dear 'ol JBJ, forget about your peaceful march against Casinos! We gotta start marching for our cinema watching freedom! I'm having all my non-pirating escapades at Cathay from now on.

If anything, at least they got their acronyms right. CFEA - you Can't Fucking Expect Anything from them.

Flagship theatres to boycott:
Shaw - Lido
Eng Wah - Suntec
GV - Plaza Sing, Marina, almost every other suburban shopping mall with a cinema.

March 30, 2005
Cinema tickets to go up

FROM May 1, film-goers here have to pay more to watch a movie at the cinema.

Shaw Organisation, Eng Wah Organization and Golden Village will increase weekday tickets by 50 cents and weekend prices by S$1.

Currently, tickets cost about S$6 to S$7 on weekdays and S$8 to S$8.50 on weekends. After May 1, prices will range from $6.50 to $9.50.

Prices for senior citizens and students at selected weekday showtimes, which are now discounted, will also see slight increases. Rates vary for the different chains.

The three companies comprise the Cinematograph Film Exhibitors Association (CFEA).

Mr Shaw Vee King, managing director of Shaw Organisation and chairman of the association, said that the price hikes will help cover increased utility costs for exhibitors.

Fast Car and Fancy That!




My uncle has a new toy, and it's called the SLK (see above). I know I'd never be able to afford something like that in my lifetime, and the best I could do is to take it for a spin around the car park. With my $1 slipper driving it! Somehow, I think that's just amusing, to be stepping on something so expensive with something so dirt cheap. Cheap thrill, I hear, but it's quite a kick, especially when u see the mechanised canopy retracting overhead and hearing the fake mechanical sound as the vehicle is 'transformed'. I'm no car person, but I'm quite sure that many people's dreams have been fulfilled by me tonight. Ha.. I'm still sticking with my dream Mini though. Well, it don't need to be the S convertible, even the Bean one will do. Interested parties, please donate generously to the HZ-Mini fund. Contact me for details.

The Dynamism of an Information Superhighway

Well, this is not some 'cheem' (sophisticated) essay here. Just an update to the ripple of the April Fool gag that happened few days too early. Thank goodness for the computer whiz we love to call geeks (that will eventually drive bigger cars, marry prettier wives, live in bigger houses, but I shan't digress here), we now have *ta-da* online streaming!!! Free downloads!!! Til kingdom come. Courtesy of a thankless community as such hard at work.

And that's it. This carnival should come to an end now. Anymore attention given to it (OMFG! I'm only 2 degrees separated!) would be exagerrating.

And now, we interrupt this for a newsflash...

Well ok. Apparently, the authorities weren't slacking, so I'm forced to plagarise the transcript of what happened on Monday in some math class at aNUS here:

Lecturer: Okay, the next example, I think we will do it after the break. Alright, but before you go for your break, the surprise is not here yet, alright, so let me do something first.

Lecturer: Okay, what happen is that there's a guy... who liked a girl very much. And this girl, is in this class. *stirrings from audience*

Lecturer: Okay, but she doesn't know about it. *laughs from audience and chuckles from lecturer* So it can be any, any one of you alright. Okay, don't, don't be too worried. The guy is not me. *riotous laughter from audience*

Lecturer: Okay, this guy is quite shy, so he want me to show this Powerpoint to the girl. *flashes Powerpoint slide* Where is ***? Maybe he's too shy to come out. Ah, okay anyway actually the guy is not that shy after all. He's going to, he's going to come out and present a prower (Ed: flower) to the girl. *cheers and claps from audience*

*guy gives flowers and audience claps*

What's the big deal anyway, if he dares to do it on print, so be it. If SHE's receiving it, it's a damn compliment to her fugly fuck face (fair and square, she called him 'stupid', i call her 'fugly'. Taste of her own medicine if she ever sees it). If it's aNUS who decides to take it down, what's anything gotta do with u, u autocratic bitch?

Enough school-bashing for a day. I'm balanced once again..