Fucked up Priest embezzlement fiasco: Moral of the story? Never trust a man in skirts.

University education per semester - $5000*
Ultra short denim skirt - $50*
Zebra print cotton panties - $25*
Combining the view of all that in the short span of 5 minutes - priceless

Finally, a refreshing change. Instead of the usual white-for-purity-in-case-I-flash-myself colour, what greeted me in class today was some right slanting zebra print design instead. Wouldn't have noticed anything had the tutor not asked for student feedback. Don't know whether to feel amusing or cheap-thrilled. At least it was some kind of eye candy that it belonged to. And a smart one too if i may add. Still, there must be something about the female peripheral vision. It's as if they can sense something's amiss even from the slightest eye movement, and she started sitting right again not long after.
Or maybe it's just draught.

*estimated prices

I just don't get it. Why does everyone like to like scream in front of your face when they don't like what they r seeing? It's like shouting at an ugly man for spoiling their appetite. I mean I don't mind you telling me ugly, but why scream at me for fuck's sake. Prove what point? That I have the balls to try new things and you don't? Fucking hate conservatives. Wuzz! I hate all these social priming that's making me dislike something that i originally felt neutral about. Personally, it's a challenge to style myself and look gd! Haha! Should get someone to like take a picture of moi and post it up soon before everything fades. I mean it's not like you have dark brown hair with a blue metallic strip on everyday rite?

Just realised that my blog's been linked w/o permission recently. Not that I'm exceptionally thrilled, but then I'm not exactly pleased either. I mean it's basic courtesy, with all the talk on plagarism and bullshit. I mean yes, credit when it's due, but seek permission at least! I don't exactly GIVE MY blog addresses. And I don't need more publicity to my already very pubic life, thank you. Leave me alone! But then again, I do that too, so what different does it make me from all those scums out there?

Can Man Live Without God? by some famous indian christian speaker.
His answer: No.
My answer: So what?
Quite an intelligent and insightful speaker I must say, though he could go easy on the Xtian marketing. However, the more I think about it, the angrier I've become. It's like I've been duped by the spin doctor and thinking that he actually has WISDOM to offer when all i'm hearing is an intellectual sales pitch. He's slick. Too slick. And that's making me sick.
God is a belief, so why do I have to externalise him/her? The main crux of HIS argument (though he'd LOVE to play with semantics and say stuff like "NO, I didn't say that" and all those BS, which is pretty dirty considering he's a PROFESSIONAL and the lousy shithead students questioning him were all novices) was that MAN is subjective, and hence his moral reasoning of the truth is subjective and never absolute.
The catch is, GOD may be THE truth, but he's still relying on slimebag subjective MAN to deliver his "message". How true is that now? It's no news at all that some priest is caught in some embezzlement scandal in Singapore. GOD don't ask you to contribute 10% of your income ("willingly" of course, as willing as I am to open my ass to a homo and ask him to come fuck me - there's something called the Asch effect, BUSTER), that's MAN at work. If it's absolute, no matter how you say it, it'd still be the truth rite? WRONG. Don't even make me bother to prove it to you (though I may not necessary have the examples now, I'm sure u'd have better)
I mean BALLS TO YOU if you tell me that YOUR religion is THE religion. Yes, so Mr J did this and that, yadda yadda yadda... The bottomline is, you may have reliability from the whatever million years of text, but you might not have external validity.
The reason why there's so much bloodshed and evil in the world is NOT because people fail to realise the one absolute truth. It's because everyone WANTS THEIR truth to be THE absolute. How absolute and untainted can it get, coming from the filthy, confused mouths of MAN? The only absolute truth that you can get is that there is NO absolute truth.
And then he'd counter it by asking u, "is that the truth?"
"NO! and even then, I'm not sure!" Now, if that's not example enough of how fucked up the human brain can get, den go fuck yourself. Suppose that what I've just said IS the absolute truth, but the logical rationality of it all breaks down, NOT because it ISN'T the truth, but rather because of the limitations of MAN! The semantical paradox is not one of logic, but rather one of language. If you consider that epitome of truth as the 4th dimension, WE, as man simply just can't fathom it because we r only 3D. Just like how a dot can never see a line, a line can never see a square and a square can never see a cube!
And to think I was so blind as to actually believe in how "impartial" that he actually appeared to be. Stupid stupid stupid.

Surprise surprise. Waddya know, I'm da jackass in sheepskin after all! Can't expect much though, coming from a "KIDS" site...

You're a Dope BF!
You won't be without a girlfriend for long (unless you choose to be,) cuz you are perfect. You always know the right thing to say without being a totally sappy loser and your girl appreciates it. Your the guy every girl dreams about, but you don't let that get to your head. Stick to your current dating game plan and you'll always manage to get the girl.

I love law library!
Been quite a low life recently. I mean just look at the number of posts I've been having here! All nothing but work work and WORK. Feels real good to be actually WORKING towards your grades rather than do silly juvenile hall shit. The frenzy on hall points and everything is back again. I mean this hall lives because of the supper culture, not anything else. Build me a prince george here and I'd be the 1st to check in! Silly silly 18-19 yr old children playing house while I gotta go with the flow cos of the proximity to school. & it's not helping in the fact that like minded people with me are all leaving come next semester. Dear neighbour hall, would you like to take me in? Just for 1 year will do. If not for the stupid videos that always tugs the heartstrings at the end of the workyear, I'd have left a long time ago. Would I look for hostel credentials if I'm ever an employee? Hell NOT.

I wanna run away.

For the 1st time in my life, I actually feel the burden of choice. Must be to do with that stupid X by clamp anime that i've been watching. I'm sick and tired of procrastinating, and totally sick of this hostel lifestyle. Does life really entail having the responsibility to do something right even though you don't believe in it? So many rhetorics, so little time. Who would I die for this very instant? Maybe her. Or maybe I just want to die for someone. Or maybe I just want to die. It doesn't really matter who I die for.

GHZ's theory of CAP postulation:

Lets's say a module has 30% term test, 10% class participation and 60% exams grade.

Assumption 1: The 12.5% (1/8) sampled is representative of the module population,
Assumption 2: Average class participance grade is a non-factor,
Assumption 3: An A grade constitutes 5th %tile of the cohort, A- 10th %tile, B+ 20th %tile, B 40th %tile, B- 50th %tile, C+ 65th %tile, C 70th %tile, C- 80th %tile, D 90th %tile and F 95th %tile.

In the term test, let's say you scored in the region of the 65th %tile grade (ie your results was ranked 65th out of 100 scripts), that gives u a low C+ grade with a 30% weightage.

Meaning to say, if you were to score a B in the final exam paper, you'd have gotten TWO B grades with a 30% weightage each. By equalising them out, that is as good as saying you have a grade of 2 B- and 1 B at 30% each. Averaging them out, you'd have high B- as your final grade.

If you were to score a B+ in the exam, with the C+ in the test, you'd be as good as having 3Bs at 30% each, which would be a B in the final grade.

The catch now is, a B MAY fall from the sky, but you'd have to work for your B+s in order for you to get it. So now I'd have to work my ass off just so i could have an overall B grade????

So demoralising.

Penny for MY thoughts: What is it with women with intelligence? Their confidence just makes them so goddamn fucking sexy.

Laziness is a disease and I'm dying from it. Why do I like to delimit myself with silly indulgences as such? The dragon awakes; it's now or never.

I give up. I really do. Theory X don't happen in the workforce because people get paid and CAN be fired. It only happens in students.

I KNOW I'm a leader. I KNOW I can take charge. But do you really want me to? I'm too hardline, and are YOU sure you can take that? Of course, I'm still picking up on my soft skills, so in the meantime, do YOU wanna suffer? Why do I get the feeling that I'm surrounded by idiots more and more everyday? Why do I ALWAYS have to pick up the loose pieces and then make myself seem incompetent because of what other people screw up while I try to do damage control?

The point is, nobody can be BUSY 24 hours a day. If you have something on, just let us know when it ends. Or if it involves other people, excuse yourself and go off earlier if you have to. Why do I have to keep repeating myself day in day out, "So when are you free? Meeting 'til what time? What time can you can back? How about tomorrow? Oh so, tommorow cannot, when are you free?..." Can't everyone see that it's a loop? If everyone has to meet in the middle of macritchie reservoir in the middle of the night at 3 am in the morning because that's the only available time and place, SO BE IT. If the deadline is TOMORROW, would we still go about doing our own FUCKING projects just because it's "prearranged"? That's what prioritising is about. I'm SORRY that NO ONE wanna make the effort to plan things earlier. I'm SORRY that I HAVE TO BE THE ONE that ends up doing all the dirty work and making LAST MINUTE PLANS in trying to string things together. I'm SORRY that although we all pay the SAME FUCKING SCHOOL FEES, eat the SAME COCKSUCKING FOOD in campus, I'M STILL THE ONE that's DOING. Oh sure, everyone's trying. But who's doing anything about it?

Nobody's perfect, and neither am I. I love to do things last minute. Why? Cos that's the only time people would FUCKING give me the FUCKING time and priority to finish up whatever we have to do. There's always going to be something else more important until 24hours before the deadline.

If you ever caught me dead with meditation from Tha�s playing in the backgroud, you know i committed suicide in peace.

A long time ago, She told me I'm an escapist. I didn't even know what THAT means then, but as much as I hate to admit, She's right.

Finally! 1 more day before we close comm! And then we are done for the year!

To think it took 10 long years before I get to stand next to my bro and sing in the concert. Feels good to have someone stick around you after such a long time. Don't think I'll ever get to feel the same way ever again. Dunno why, as cheesy as it may seem, been holding back my tears each time I sing Voyage of Songs. The last time I ever felt anything like this was back in 98, when everyone's a kid and everything else seemed like a memorable experience. Like I said, the song really just about sums up the whole year's work. This whole year was a journey, and my ship's just about to dock.